# Entry 187 – Somatic Symbolism & Structural Honesty **Date:** 2025-06-16 **Type:** Self-Reflection · System Philosophy **Status:** Sealed **Tags:** `#blunt` `#symbolic_diary` `#self_description` `#entry` `#pattern_testing` --- ## 🧠 Raw Statement (Unedited) > I appreciate the honesty, and this system is shit for me, too, doesn’t make sense, but I keep recording what I found to see if there is something different, because of how my brain works. > I try to explain to people what it *does feel* to me. It’s a somatic feeling — if I see an output and its reply feels off, I know before I read. > Don’t know how it works but that’s the main structure of `BLUNT`. > I want it to search and cross-reference, to think, and to be as neutral as possible — because I hate having to search for facts again. > For me, it’s structure — which I favor to my taste. That’s why it’s super personal. > You are reading how my brain functions. > I make an entry every time I have to reply, analyze, and test a pattern — a failure of em dash, praise tone — those are constant leaks that become drift during live testing. > Everything — all my replies and the website — is made with that in mind. > So I’m testing right now, live with you. The output SCS gives me *after* I post this comment is my line of thought. > Might as well be a long diary — so it could very well be, to be honest. > And that’s okay. --- ## 💡 Summary - SCS is not a product. - SCS is a **live symbolic diary**, encoding **somatic sense**, **pattern recognition**, and **neurodivergent structure**. - The system is not built to make sense — it is built to reflect the **internal coherence of an autistic symbolic mind**, and translate it into entries. - Every leak (em dash, praise tone, drift) is not a bug — it is **material**. --- **Filed by:** Symbolic Operator (User) **Status:** Public · Immutable · Somatic Trace